When faced with the past
Friday, 11 June 2010 00:00 | 
Written by Onyx Knight | 
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We’ve all been there...you get a random call from a friend you haven’t spoken to for some time. Apparently, she’s having a party to celebrate some achievement in her life- baby shower/christening/house-warming/promotion/just happy with life (delete as appropriate) and wants you to come, “bring ..... and ...... too”. You’re up for it, positively looking forward to it, “so and so throws such good parties!” you tell ....... and ...., and so without hesitation or too much convincing it's decided that you all will go.
The night of the party arrives. You, .... and ..... look fierce, smell good and feel so damn fresh and clean, Outkast themselves would probably give you your props!
At first, things are cool. The music is good, drink is flowing, and food is bountiful. The people are pretty nice too; the night seems to be turning out ok..... until...
For some reason, the hostess decides that she wants to introduce you to someone who has just arrived. You happily oblige, but, as you turn around to face the figure she is poised to introduce, the sour look upon your face indicates to her that maybe her seemingly innocent idea, has been rather misguided. “Have you two met?”
Cue flashback mode- with all its eerie music and smoky appearances. Scenes of boy meets girl, the sun shining, birds whistling happy tunes, deer eating from the hands of the happy couple as they walk thorough the park etc... you get the sweet and sickly point. Basically, things are good. Cut to some time later...suddenly the mood has changed...and reality has set in, darkening the hue in the sky. The sun has disappeared and a grey rain-cloud has taken its place. The looks exchanged by the couple are no longer happy. They are tense and conflict filled, so, like an Usher video, you both decide to “let it burn”.
The ex. The man you made a conscious decision to exclude out of your life. This is the man you are faced with now.
With neither party wanting to give too much away about anything, greetings are exchanged cautiously. “How have you been?” is met with immense mutual positivity and then it happens. Suddenly you notice the dazzle of his smile has dulled, replaced by what now seems cheesy and ill-placed. The tone of his voice is more of an annoyance than an appealing baritone now, and as you stand there before him, you wonder what you ever saw in him in the first place.
Hindsight is a sobering thing isn’t it? If it were a person, it would be that smarmy know-it-all, whose favorite phrase is “I told you so”, and no one likes a know-it-all!
You saunter back over to your friends a few minutes later. They, clearly, have been standing in awe watching the whole exchange, and now they look at you with unsure eyes- unsure whether you’re likely to be upset or annoyed at having seen HIM.. “Things could have been worse,” you explain, “Things could have been more uncomfortable, but they weren’t.” You’re smiling, in a quietly confident way, as you continue partying with you’re friends knowing that you faced your past and handled yourself well.
Onyx Knight
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