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So today I did it. I had to have a word. It had gotten ridiculous. Things had gone on for too long now. Someone needed to be taken aside and spoken to.

Enough was enough, so the approach was made. I had to have a word with myself. I had almost crossed a line into a dark and dangerous place I had no business being... Innocence had almost become…psychotic? Possibly obsessed. Well, at the very least questionable?

By the time I'd managed to resolve myself to my impending action, I had my phone in my hand, fumbling around with functions trying to make sure my flash wasn't on, and also finding just the right way to hold my phone to make it appear that I was merely reading a text. Remember guys I may be a little random, but, crazy I am not!

Anyway cold hard realism set in when I noticed the two women that had come round the corner. The fear of being caught and an inability to take the picture discreetly without fear of discovery and subsequent reprisal made sure that I quickly put my phone back in my pocket.

It was only once I had got on the bus that I had time to think about what I had nearly attempted. What the hell was happening to me? I felt like I was becoming that crazy person who claims to have been abducted by aliens, and then, when no one believes them, spends their whole life trying to prove the existence of E.T!

I can only imagine the differing responses to this. There are some of you who would mock me for doing something so odd, maybe be somewhat amused by the fact I had reverted to some teenage antics. There are some of you whom would admit attempting the same thing, as I discovered later that morning when I told my friend about what had happened, and her response was that of understanding rather than the expected ridicule.

This makes me question how easy it is for us to end up going in too deep, taking that one step which pushes a situation from cute and innocent to vaguely disturbing and cringeworthy. At the moment I contemplated making that move for which there was no turning back, I had almost pushed and crossed that boundary. The angel on my shoulder fought to keep me on the side of reason, and sensible decision, whilst the mischievous devil on my other shoulder pranced around shouting "This is a perfect opportunity. What's the worst that can happen?"

Err, I could get caught? Note to self, leave mischief at home in its cage, it will cause nothing but trouble!

Onyx Knight