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Now, I’m not a believer in fate, but, sometimes, I am unbelievably amazed at how much certain situations can feel “fate like".

Like, there was a reason why I had to wake up late this morning and also a reason why I chose to break a habit and take a different bus route this morning. How else can I explain the fact that today was the day, after a small hiatus, I bumped into Mr GQ out of the blue, after not seeing him for a few weeks?

Maybe it's just a coincidence? Hmm... somehow that reasoning would only seem to apply if I hadn’t really changed anything about my behavior. But, since, inexplicably, my whole morning routine was thrown into turmoil, I can only surmise that the idea of fate holds more truth than I originally thought.

All throughout the morning I kept wondering why? Like, why can't I seem to move faster today and why did I oversleep when I’m not even that tired?

You remember when I wrote Beware of Faces? It dealt with the same issue. It was fate that I happened to get off the bus when I did, when I happened to look across the street and see my friend, who at the time happened to be having a slight crisis because she thought she had lost her phone, who I happened to convince to get on the bus and head home to calm herself, where on the same bus we happened to bump into a girl who saw my friend’s dad pick up the phone, and who along the same journey with me happened to spot the guy my friend had been seeing on and off, who happened to be pushing a stroller containing his child alongside his ex…  If that's not fate, then what is it? One coincidence is probably just that, a coincidence. But, when you start racking up coincidences, there comes a point when you start to wonder whether some greater force is working here.

However, the deeper I thought about it, the more I was brought closer to the conclusion that I was dealing with some sort of mental imposter. This thing I had blindly assumed was some greater force of fate in this situation was probably just mere coincidence as I originally thought. What must have made it seem like fate was hope. It was because at that time I decided it would be funny/nice/cool if I bumped into Mr GQ , and clearly hoped for the occurrence with such an intensity, when it did happen I attributed it to something more than it was. Something dangerously misleading… Fate.

Onyx Knight